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ooohhh…this made me tear up as I know the emotional mix you and Kristin are going through. But one thing I told myself that helped me to love each baby with the devotion that they deserve to be loved with- is that they are yours for the time they are in your home and you are his Daddy every time you feed him, change his diaper, stay up with him at night, or kiss his sweet face… in those moments, he is yours.
What tomorrow holds as far as Baby “B” remaining your son, we can only hope and pray. Hang in there…the Lord’s calling for us is not always an easy one.

We’re sending home one of ours – the baby boy “R” – this week. Down to one. We get to keep our little girl for a while longer. I would be thrilled if she would stay with us forever. Her court is on Friday also. She’s not ours… she’s not ours…. Somehow I bonded with this one more than R. I don’t know why – except that she is so uncommonly agreeable and beautiful. I feel like I shouldn’t be allowed to feel preference to one over another, but I do, though I love them both. This is a hard job.

I feel like I shouldn’t be allowed to feel preference to one over another, but I do, though I love them both.

I know exactly what you mean. I need to come to grips with the fact that there will be children I bond more deeply with than others. I think it’s natural … and even good.

I think what makes us feel like we shouldn’t is our inclination to withhold love from one in order to lavish it on the other.

you are filling a need that “B” has. He needs to be held and cuddled and taken care of. I don’t always feel affectionate toward my kids, or feel like i want to meet their needs…but i do and they don’t always know my feelings. i think that what you are struggling with, and i did…and still do at times, it this need for self-fulfillment and our overwhelming self awareness as americans. fostering is good for us b/c it exposes us and our idols…even things that don’t look like idols. ya’ll are good parents to both of the children that God has given you at this time…i mean “J” is not even promised to be w/you tomorrow. and you know, i think alot of birth parents are heart-broken…but not all of them have the ability or the “whatever” to get it together and “prove” themselves. 12-18 months is a long time. ya’ll are great. we really love ya’ll.

ahhh…Matt and Kristin. I know this is hard. Matt, I don’t doubt you love this little guy…..there’s just a whole lot of emotions going on right now….and a bit of a “protection” of your own heart b/c you don’t know what to expect! And the feelings you have about meeting bm are SOOO normal and SOOO good! You should be encouraged and sad!!! And you are right…..he’s not “yours”, but he’s in your home, under your care, receiving your love…..you know him better than anybody except his bm, and he’s dependent on you for all he needs! He knows your smells, he knows your smiles, he knows your consistency, he knows the warmth of your cuddles, he knows your love. Those are incredible things!!! And it’s a gift to you and Kristin – nobody else gets to do this with “B” right now! This is such an amazing season for ya’ll – it’s your first “official” foster baby – you are learning SOOOOO much and going through SOOOOO much! It seems like you are feeling all the right feelings and expressing them, and being honest – it’s SO good! The Lord is glorified in ya’ll as you go through this with honesty and joy, with fear and trembling trusting His plan! We love you guys – ya’ll are doing amazing!!!!!!

Wow, Matt. I can imagine feeling similar things to what you are if we were in your situation. You are welcoming the Lord Jesus whenever you welcome little “B” in your home.